WOW!!! time goes so fast. I've been here ONE YEAR already! Kids are sleeping, I'm sitting in the kitchen, laptop in front of me, thinking about my year in America - how it was/is/ and will be.
I still remember last week before my departure. I was in big rush and you didn't have time to realize all things. I was thinking about the most ideas, questions and issues when I was sitting in departure lounge, waiting for my flight into the unknown. Don't my friends, colleagues and family forget about me? How is it actually going to so far from everyone and everything I love? Will I see someone during the year in NYC?
.... not only these questions, but many others were in my mind. Yes, it's a big change, but worth it!
The first few days after arrival is also a rush. During school you have a fight with jet lag, then you have to settle with family, getting used to in new routines, but still something is not like before, I'm missing something ....
Facebook and Instagram don't make my adaptation for new place easier. Friends fulfill social media with photos from parties, events, balls, concerts, celebrations, weddings... but I´m not sharing it with them. Fortunately, I deal with this fact quickly. Not for nothing people say "Think positive!" A few days after my arrival was au pair meeting, where I met my best! Sonja, Bianca, Taryn, Kirsty and Julia will forever belong to my life. I´m not saying we had always the best time, but we are still friends who make and will make plans together.
During the year I figured out who is really friend and who just well-known. Simply - firends are those people, who share everything with you and don´t mind that long distance between you. You can contact them with anything and anytime. But you can´t say this about acquintances. Acquaintances are just people who, when they meet you they are just joking - yeah American girl.
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| best friend forever |
Year unfortunately showed me who really love me from my family and who don´t. Yeah sometimes it just happened. On the another side, I gained wonderful second family. We created really nice and close relationship. These many experiences, funs, events, holidays are not going to erase from my life. Moreover, for all of them i will be always their INKA (Avery´s shorcut from Dominika).
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| best aunt |
I´m not homesick, but sometimes I miss the home comfort when you are just enjoying moment with your loved ones and you are happy. Unfortunately, this is the tax for my "American dream life."
When I look back today, I am different girl then the one who came 10/06/14. The old girl went to Starbucks everyday for $4 coffee and today´s girl go to deli for $1,25 coffee or you makes it home. The old girl got paid on Friday and on Sunday had $0 on her bank account, but new girl knows how to save money. I realized that that life is not just about brand new handbag or expensive coat, but it is about the experiences!!! I´m still interested in fashion, but before I buy something I asked myself 100x if I really need it. Mostly I do not need. While living in America I considered my priorities and began to see my life from another perspectives.
Substitution of your feelings and mood is there like on treadmill. Great days change into bad days and it´s like this over and over again. Fortunately, I still have more great days then bad ones. You can´t hide emotions, but through them I´ve clarified a lot of things. When someone loves you and cares about you, then long distance relationship is a trifle.
Are you still thinking and have no ideat what to do? Go abroad! Just here you will discover things you didn´t know before. You will find what you like and what you want from life. Well, if you will go back home don´t be afraid that you will go with ZERO in your hands.
I´m not talking about finances. You will be enriched about experiences, memories, friends, fluent speach in foreign language, ... Is not that bad, right? If you will discover this once, you will never want to stop. You are going to fulfill those things, what were impossible for you before. Suddenly, life will have sence for you and you will see things from perspective. Everything you have collected so far, will add any strength for your next life path.
The year is nothing. It went so fast. All people said it, but I didn´t believe them. Today,
I can admit: "Yes, they were right." I have 6 months left and I know they will run so fast.
I don´t know what will be my next step. I have some ideas in my head - we will see, let surprise everyone. Whatever my end will be, I can proudly say: "I have lived my American dream."
Don´t worry to make your own big step to nowhere!
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